One day Anni was twirling and singing one of her original compositions.
"It's my gift!" she declared.
Dizzy, she fell with spectacular gracelessness.
Laying on her back on the tile floor she began flapping her arms and legs
as if she were making a snow angel.
"Falling down is also a gift!" says she.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

dancing on the edge of a cliff

Yes, that is really how I described, rather melodramatically, the feeling of proclaiming good news too loudly. How in the world did I get to be so superstitious? As if drawing attention to good fortune were an open invitation to rain giant golf balls of crap down on our heads? I can completely see how strange behaviors and irrational beliefs start to become the stuff of everyday life. It's like we're living in our own little Skinner box. Didn't pack a suitcase to have in the trunk, just in case, for a clinic visit? Annika spikes a fever right as we walk into the examining room. Ask to have an I.V. removed because it's bothering her and she doesn't seem to need it anymore? Suddenly a few new intravenous medicines will be necessary. Celebrating good insurance news and apparent good health? Time for another bleed! So there it is. The news from our little rat maze: Annika started bleeding again this afternoon. Jörg is with her at the E.R. I'm packing and arranging care for Frankie. Annika is in excellent spirits.

41 Comments:

Blogger Phantom Scribbler said...

Oh good god. Thinking about you all, and hoping you'll be back home again soon.

3/15/2006 5:55 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Prayers for Annika...and for you and Jorg and sweet Frankie.

Norah

3/15/2006 6:24 PM  
Anonymous Crystal said...

God bless you! I hope everything works out! Hope Annika feels better soon!

3/15/2006 6:31 PM  
Blogger Rowan said...

Crap!

I just hope that this is not so serous.

Thinking of you.

3/15/2006 7:31 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ugh, Moreena. Sending positive vibrations your way.

xo Catherine

3/15/2006 7:43 PM  
Blogger mc said...

Ugh. That's so not fair. Sending good thoughts your way...

3/15/2006 8:04 PM  
Blogger LoriLaurieLauri said...

Oh...I am so sorry to hear this! Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers!

3/15/2006 8:17 PM  
Anonymous Miche said...

So sorry that the "high" was followed so closely by this low. Big *hugs* and healing thoughts your way.

3/15/2006 8:31 PM  
Blogger Laurie said...

Shit. SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT. Prayers and good thoughts coming your way.

3/15/2006 8:47 PM  
Blogger liz said...

Damn.

Hugs and kisses to you all.

3/15/2006 10:03 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

We will pray for you and yours.

Take care.

Frank (Marisa's Dad)

3/15/2006 10:03 PM  
Blogger Joanna said...

Moreena
No no no!!! You barely all got time to catch your breath. Believe in the power of thought and prayer, we're all here willing this bleed to stop quickly. I can't even be happy to hear your insurance problem is temporarily OK. Take care, Annika.

3/15/2006 10:29 PM  
Anonymous Beanie Baby said...

Oh Moreena, not again! I'm sorry.

(Maybe the package will be there by now?)

3/16/2006 6:29 AM  
Blogger moxiemomma said...

golf balls of crap, indeed.

i'm sorry, moreena. sending as many positive vibes as i can muster from my tiny corner of the world.

3/16/2006 7:52 AM  
Anonymous Genevieve said...

SO sorry. That is just so wrong.

Good that Annika's in good spirits, anyway. But YEESH.

Annika's still on DH's group's prayer list. We'll have her in our thoughts.

3/16/2006 8:11 AM  
Anonymous Lauren said...

Sending prayers and good thoughts your way.

~Lauren

3/16/2006 8:47 AM  
Anonymous The Ketter family said...

Crap, crap, crap, crappity, crap. Oh, Moreena, et al., you are in our prayers. Please update when you can. In the meantime, we'll continue to pray.

3/16/2006 8:52 AM  
Blogger Shannon, Little Marisa' s Mommy said...

I'm so sorry your going through this again. Prayers continue for Anni and the whole family.

3/16/2006 8:58 AM  
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3/16/2006 8:58 AM  
Blogger ccw said...

Thinking about you all. I hope everyone is home again very soon.

3/16/2006 9:05 AM  
Anonymous Jamie said...

I'm sorry, sweetheart. Still praying and sending positive thoughts.

3/16/2006 9:31 AM  
Anonymous Tammi said...

---HUGS--- Oh Moreena...prayers for everyone. Lots of love being sent your way. Give Anni a kiss from all of her cyber-friends, please.

3/16/2006 9:45 AM  
Blogger Eryn said...

Oh NO! (((HUGS))

3/16/2006 10:22 AM  
Blogger Rev Dr Mom said...

Hugs, prayers and good thoughts for all of you; hope this is resolved quickly.

3/16/2006 10:55 AM  
Blogger CLMama said...

Ack Moreena. So sorry to hear this. Please keep us posted. I read your blog every day and say prayers for your family. Anni is a strong girl; continued strength her way. (And for what it is worth, whomever is suggesting in the Blogworld that your blog is 'too depressing,' well, they can take their opinions and stick em' where the sun doesn't shine. I don't ever want you to hold back your emotions in your writing, depressing or whatnot. You write so well, and your story is an important one - for YOU and for the rest of the world to be aware; you've educated me a lot and made me really appreciate my children).

3/16/2006 1:03 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

No, no, no!!!!!!
Holding Annika in my thoughts and prayers. I hope this go-around resolves itself quickly.

xxoo,
Mary, Ayden's grandma

3/16/2006 1:07 PM  
Anonymous Amy said...

Wow. Hugs and Prayers sent your way. My mom's expression during difficult times (which I heard a LOT during my last years at home) was "This too will pass." Here's to hoping it passes sooner rather than later and that you guys will be in sunnier fields soon!

3/16/2006 2:50 PM  
Blogger Sarah said...

Prayers for Annika

3/16/2006 3:54 PM  
Blogger Amanda M said...

(((Hugs)))

Thank goodness the insurance is worked out.

3/16/2006 5:59 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Dancing on the edge of the cliff"...well when you're there...you have the best view. Praying for the dr. to break out those nine irons for those golf balls and hit em' long and straight.

3/16/2006 6:05 PM  
Blogger halloweenlover said...

I hope this is a short visit also. Good thoughts for all of you.

3/16/2006 6:15 PM  
Blogger Jenevieve said...

Oh jeez...

Praying for Anni and all of you...

3/16/2006 9:12 PM  
Blogger Yankee T said...

You're in my thoughts, always.

3/16/2006 10:06 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Crap on a cracker!!!

Hope it's quickly resolved and a short stay. Prayers going out for you all.

tina

3/17/2006 7:00 AM  
Blogger Jane Dark said...

Oh, man! Not what you needed at all. I'm delighted that Annika is in good spirits, and as always, I'm praying.

3/17/2006 8:42 AM  
Blogger jo(e) said...

Sending prayers and warm thoughts.

3/17/2006 2:47 PM  
Blogger purple_kangaroo said...

Praying for you all.

3/17/2006 5:39 PM  
Blogger Shannon, Little Marisa' s Mommy said...

I hope today is better.... You're all in our prayers.

3/17/2006 6:24 PM  
Anonymous Robyn said...

Hoping and praying for you all!

3/18/2006 10:53 AM  
Blogger tomama said...

Our thoughts are with you.

Jen

3/18/2006 12:27 PM  
Blogger Musey_Me said...

Thoughts and hugs to you and Annika.

3/18/2006 1:00 PM  

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